Why does he deserve this honor?
Kane is worthy of being the fictional #MCM this week because of the hell he went through. He is traumatized in his youth, seeks revenge against his attacker, and takes the consequence for his actions as an adult. Meanwhile, he is checking on Helene to make sure that she is doing okay. He is one of the truly honorable heroes, and the reader desperately wants him to get his happy ending with Helene. They both deserve it after the horrific event they were forced to endure.
Why do I love him?
The main reason the Kane sticks out to me after reading him almost four months ago is his honor. When they are younger, Kane is protective over Helene, and, even after the traumatic event they endure together, he is still looking out for her. He seeks revenge to punish the man who has hurt them, and then he runs in order to further protect her. Later, he returns to her philosophy class in order to check in on her. Even after all this time, he still is concerned about her well-being and progress since the attack. Additionally, they heal each other as adults. Kane’s incredible dedication to doing what is right so that he can move on from the experience impressed me the most. He could have easily gotten away with the crime that he commits as an act of vengeance, and, to be honest, as the reader, I would have been okay with it, but he needs to take responsibility for his actions in order to correct the wrong choices he has made in the past and make his life better in the future. As Kane states near the end of the book, “I deserved better than what I gave myself. I deserved to recover from the trauma that happened to us and go on to live my life. I’m the one who took that away from myself for ten years – from Helene too, because my actions impacted her just as much as they did me. None of us can do anything in this world only to ourselves without affecting another. We’re all just dominoes lined up waiting to fall.” Kane is a fantastic hero who rose from the ashes to reclaim his life, and I adore him for it!
- Teenage flirting with Helene
- Asking about Nietzsche at his first philosophy class
- Taking care of his father
- Kane asking for absolution
- Calling her Hell, even though she hates it
- Teenage Kane comforting her through the attack as best he could
- Taking revenge
- Helping Helene heal with him
- Turning himself in for his crime
- Presenting in her class and waiting at home for her
I absolutely love these characters, especially Kane, and their story. There are graphic descriptions of sexual assault, so if that is a trigger for you, then this is not a book you should read. However, if you can get past the description of the assault, you will get to the heart of the story, which is about healing and moving on from a traumatic experience in order to live a full and happy life, which every victim deserves.
Kane and Helene were the best of friends until a nightmare devastated them… Hopes were destroyed, dreams shattered, a budding teenage love torn to pieces. Eleven years later their lives are nothing like they once were. Time has changed them … and not for the better.
Helene is smart, driven, and accomplished—her education and achievements a smoke screen hiding the frigid and fragile child wounded long ago.
Kane is equally obsessed with his coping mechanisms—fighting … drinking … screwing … compulsively destroying himself one vice at a time.
When their paths collide again, their past becomes an obstacle no coping mechanism in the world can protect them from. But confronting the past so they can heal in the present is no easy task. Can Kane reach Helene and recapture what used to burn so warmly between them, or will his own self destructive demons pull her into his hell?
A woman determined to look forward. A man always looking back. A love desperate to be restored.
“You’re the brightest, warmest star in my universe. You’ll never be less than everything to me.”
WARNING: This book contains darker subject matter and violent content that may be difficult for some readers.